Yay!My dad is out for his meeting and dinner,
thats mean i can use the computer already,
this morning we purposely meet late so as to be late for Biology,
we had Mac again ( Oh man, i'm getting bored of it!),
then walked to school,
since Ah Ngiam said that her limit was twenty minutes,
we came in at eighteen minutes, haha,
the boys were later they came in at twenty four minutes,
went to the lab, so long since i last step in,
did experiment and went back for english,
played PSP and we talked about class chalet,
i'm not sure i can go for the BBQ not cause its a Sunday,
pray hard i can go when i ask my dad later on,
break and went for physcis and out for lunch break and POA and maths,
Miss Wong say cannot be late, what the hell,
so means i must be in her class at 9 sharp,
went to Mac and sit and played PSP,
Ah Mui was making me damn anxious playing Bomber Man,
After that i went home and swim,
its my passion now, my eyes were blur when i was out from the pool,
but it was fun!

Alright Headstart was this week and i can tell you,
this programme is damn hell boring,
like hello english that Ho Mui Fang is talking to herself,
and the rest is boring,
only Chemistry intrest me!
& this totally sucks!
I need to buck, come on Sammy!
Early 7.50 i waited for my girls at Macdonalds and so happen jean they all were there,
so we ate together and they went off later,
went for chemistry and Mrs Quah was late for 45 minutes,
& for your info one period is 1 hour and we only had 15 mins of chem,
screw it!
then was physics(dumb mr gan was hot today, break, POA( as usual late to release),
went for lunch break and came back for bio like 20 minutes late,
and that dumb ass Miss Ngiam scold us!
Damn her, i hope she can't get married!
after that was english and we went to eat Sakae Sushi!
Oh yay! after that we shopped around and went home,
i swam 10 long laps! i feel great!(:

I did nothing at home,
basically yesterday i woke up and ate my breakfast,
then after watched TV for a hell long time,
and watched my Unbeatables,
my sister friends came over as they had a surprise party for her friend,
i watched my show till 7 and went out to eat dinner,
went with my Grandfather to eat fish steamboat,
after that i went to my cousin's house to watch Secret,
and home,
later i'll be going to my cousin house to watch all my shows.

Jia Mei; don't give up, do your best next year, its not the end of the road yet, Jia You!(:

Alright today was the last day of school,
and also a real scary experience for me,
i was kind of quiet the whole day cause i scared i would drop,
first period was english and i listened,
next was maths, Ashley was the first i heard to drop,
and i became more and more worried,
and next was POA me and HweeLing were very very scare,
i almost cried, down for recess,
and Chemistry we watched toy story,
ryan was asking me why i look like so damn worried,
simply its because i'm very very scare,
went for Miss Vasuki lesson,
Ryan did not get then pass the 4E booklist,
then it skipped AnCheng too,
next was Haiqal and then was Jia Mei,
and Ashley told me i was advance, i was shocked cause Jia Mei should have been advance too,
the whole class was talking and talking,
Miss Vasuki called my father and i stood there and listen,
after that i went off and we went to eat at the food court,
and then after rented a movie and went to monkey's house to watch,
it was kind of draggy and we played big 2 till 6 and we went to junction eight,
but i left first so i took a bus home.

I would feel damn funny next year.

Alright i have not been blogging cause i was being lazy,
typically the day went fine,
we watched Shutter during physics and i manage to scared Vanessa and Demi,
thats something good and we watched the show,
skipping recess first time 3e1 wants to skip recess,
anyway during english,
Charlie and the chocolate factory i slept through the show,
went for Miss Aljunied lesson and she said there was one who is going to be retain and 4 to 4N,
i'm still scared, how?
Studied so hard but no results, i'm going to get my dad to sign the meet the parents later on,
good luck to me,
alright thats all goodbye.

I just sent Jia Mei so i decided to post,
i basically did nothing besides watching TV and playing computer,
& most importantly praying,
i watched Brother and I a touching Chinese Movie,
is real sad, i was crying and watching,
afternoon i only play computer and did not nothing,
after that I sent Jia Mei home,
and this what i ate today only,
-a packet of small tibits
-a small pastry
-a apple pie
-Mamee Monster
-a ice stick
-a beard papa
thats all, first time i did not eat alot ina day, hooray to me,
tomorrow is the day i die or i'm happy,
People lets pray for the best.

I was sick last night,
first time in my life i was shivering like crazy under a thick blanket,
i told my sister to pass me my jacket,
and she went its damn hot,
but i felt like as if i was in a refriegerator,
after awhile i felt damn hot and ask my sister to turn down the aircon,
my sister scolded me mad,
nevermind i manage to catch my sleep and woke up feeling dizzy,
in the morning my mum left food on the table for me and my sister,
i ate already and headed off to my cousin's place,
i went there to watch the unbeatable's and i watched finish,
Claudia pass me part two please,
watch Shutter and my freaking cousin bluffed me and i started whacking him,
I stayed there till 6 and went off for dinner with my aunts and uncle,
my uncle was being an asshole,
asking me to call my mum when she is walking in already,
and went my aunt ask me why was i so angry,
i told them and he say playing only,
hyprocrite, act innocent, when he snatch my phone and call me to dialled my mum,
and scold me, freaking asshole i refused to talk to him,
i scolded him and he say i don't know what my Grandfather wants to eat,
i told him is my aunt they all order one,
he scold me know how to eat, don't know how to order,
bastard he so smart, he order luh! Being an asshole won't help him alright?
He himself don't know also right?! I swear i won't talk to him, till he apologise,
say i'm rude or whatever, its his fault, fullstop.

Yesterday was my Grandma's 49th day,
so i did not go to school, cause my dad said so,
woke up at 7.15 cause Katrina called my house,
i bathe and changed, woke my sister up and off we went to eat breakfast first,
eat already we headed down to my Grandma house,
the monk came at about 10 and we started to pray for an hour plus plus,
after that we brought everything down to the cars,
the money, the clothes, the ancestors stuffs and off we went to Mandai,
went to pray to the Ground God first and went to my Grandma place,
Next we went down to start burning everything,
we burnt money, Grandma stuffs and we all burnt a flower for her,
after burning we went to eat at lorong 4 there and i went to my cousin house to slack,
i was dead tired by then and i slept,
while my cousin and my aunt watched Shutter,
oh yea i also went to meet Ryan Chan and Darren Eng who were downstairs,
thats all, kbox-ing later,
i'm moodless to sing cause i don't know if i can be promoted?
I'm worried, efforts does not pay off at all.

I cried today cause i failed,
do you know whats the feeling when you put in all your effort and you failed?
Its seriously hard to accept,
i failed my Social Studies, i thought my history would be better but i still failed?
The rest passed, i feel disapointed in myself,
i'm not sad, i'm just disapointed why didn't i do properly,
why why why why why why why?
I have totally no confidence in getting into Sec 4E,
that all i can do, lets pray and hope for the best,
i seriously would rather die than to go Sec 4N,
kill me.

My Sexy Camera(:















My Birthday Cake.

My cousin birthday cake.

Birthday Girl &Boy.

Cousins(:

LOOK LOOK SHE BULLIED ME!

Me ans HweeChang!(:

Group Photo! thanks girls!

Price of New York New York!

Dug in and eat!

Alrights i am so bored now,
i'm at my aunt's place crashing her house and watching movies with Felix now,
well this post would be long! but read on people,
anyway on saturday i met up with Charmaine Lew, Monkey, HweeChang, Katrina, Jia Mei, Jeanette and Vanessa,
we went to NewYork NewYork to eat, i ordered fish and chips!
alright the girls ordered a slice of cake for me,
and the people there sang for me, i was so damn embarassed!
anyway thanks girls, next we went off to the arcade at Marina Square,
fun fun i played for a while and we took a group photo,
and me and HweeChang left first,
she was telling Darren and Monkey i bully her,
nevermind i got a photo and you can see who is bullying who haha,
i trained home then cabbed,
reached home i bathed and changed and out for dinner at a hotel,
yay i met my cousins and aunt,
i got a sexy camera from my dad, its pink nice uh?
Olympus camera, yay my cousins gave me a pencil case,
my sister gave me Shi Xin Huey disc,
ok i love her tons for once, and we ate and started taking photos,
next up was the cake, me and felix each got a cake,
and after that i went home,
well these are the people we wished me, thank yous,
XueFen
YorkYing
Peiqi
AhMui
Vanessa
Darren
HweeChang
Sara
Fiona
Felix
Felicia
Janice
Demi
Jeanette
Tall Friend( Jia Wei)
Charmaine Ng
Ashley
Monkey
Charmaine Lew
Katrina
ShuMei
Yiling
Kelly
Winnie
Clarise
Vivien
Kerrin
Kerwin
Aunty Judy
Aunty Chian
Amanda
PengHong
Liting
Carmen
Ryan( he aimed to be the last haha)
Hweeling (14thoctober!)
Thanks people!(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY COUSIN, FELIX & MYSELF!(:
i changed blogskin,
i'm so happy! i saw the blogskin of the day was elmo so i was thinking if there was cookie monster,
and i went to search and TADA! its here so cute right?
Oh man, i'm nuts, i'm off to watch cartoons now!
seeyous people.
& these are the people who wish me from 11.58-12.10!(:
Xuefen
YorkYing
Peiqi
Jia Mei
Vanessa(she smsed me happy hari raya(: )
Darren Yeo
HweeChang
Sara
Fiona
thats all thank you people!(:

Alright i shall post before my show is going to start,
today go school as normal except the school seems quiter,
went for english i pass my CA2 i'm happy but still need to see SA2,
then went for maths, haha Shih Quan lowest,
the whole class was laughing at him then we went to Mrs Foo class to check,
after that was POA no one was listening,
alright maybe some but majority were staring blankly,
Recess was next up and after that was Chemistry free period,
thank you Mrs Quah for not coming, break time,
after school went to the Hawker Centre to eat and after that we went to Jeanette house,
we played Soccer it was great, well i can see that i can't be a soccer player,
Peiqi and Yorkying joined us too, after playing for a hell long time i went home first,
tomorrow wake up early and going out, afternoon with my girls, night with my family,
busy day tomorrow, and Demi, Yorkying and Peiqi thank you for the presents.(:

Alrights i went to Grandma house today,
and my dad's lawyer was there as what my cousin told me,
after that i went to look for my cousin with Felix,
we had a fun time sneaking into Deyi,
nevermind we went to AMK hub to walk about,
i saw some real nice stuffs shopping time,
but i control Sean and my cousin came to look for us and we went to eat lunch,
after eating went to buy water and off we went to Heeren,
oh yay we went to NUM immediately and i spotted a lovely sandals,
its red NUM sandals, with the strap behind,
i paid for it, this is for my birthday present from my dad,
but its not enough, i'm greedy,
my cousin could not make up his mind so we went to look for his sport shoe,
he chose a Adizer shoe, black and white, reserve it,
my mum will pay for it for him as a birthday present,
good Birthday Girl and Boy,
next we went to paragon and look at crumpler bags,
after that we went back to Heeren thanks to my cousin who finally made up his mind,
crap him went back Junction eight, bought dinner, Grandma house and home-ed,
overall i'm happy with what i got today.

Yay, exams are over, that spells F-R-E-E-D-O-M!
Well we had our POA paper one today, total disaster,
i was thinking about playing and my paper i think i wrote craps,
at 9 sharp, 3e2 scream damn loudly that woke me up,
then 9.03am was our turn, you never know how happy we are,
we screamed and shouted,
oh yes exams over,after the exam,
Me, Monkey, Jia Mei, Vanessa and Demi we went to Junction eight for breakfast,
and we sat there till about 10 plus plus?
and me and Jia Mei headed off to Vivo City,
Jia Mei is so dumb she though Dhoughby Ghaut was Vivo,
i was laughing like mad,
anyway we changed train and got ourself there,
reached there we were turning in rounds to find the cinema,
in the end we landed ourself at Toy'r'us,
and we bought a water bottle each, oh yay,
and we walked back and found the cinema,
but Jia mei could not use her free ticket admission so we dropped the idea,
we continue to walk and wander and called Demi Ng,
but she don't want to come so me and Jia Mei went to Giant,
hell fun can, we took a trolley and start playing haha,
we both wanted a FBT shirt so we went to see,
and Jia Mei got the lime green i got the Darker green one,
went and walked around and got four pens for my usuage,
and we were going rounds in the supermarket,
we paid and off we went to put back the trolley and the guard went sorry, this one different,
so we got to go up to return the trolley and finally Demi came with her friends,
we only met each other for awhile then went off,
i saw the thirty seven degree wallet, Jia Mei keep pestering me not to buy,
stupid KooKoo, nevermind we walked around and met Demi again at NUM,
damn nice luh the shop, i want to sandals!
my cousin is buying tomorrow, so i'm accompanying him with Sean,
alright we went to Toast Box to eat and we sat all the way back to Toa Payoh,
went there drank Bubble Tea and we sat outside there to drink finish,
and to get in to get Yiling's wrapping paper to wrap her present,
and after that i went home.
Exams are over, finally.

Its all lies, yes i know but i chose to deceived myself,
bottle up my feelings one by one,
and soon i'll explode into thin air and wave goodbye,
its never easy deceiving yourself but its good that you know its a lie,
but its hurting to know you are lying to yourself,
this is the second time i cried till my eyes went red,
i don't want to think, and don't wish to think as well,
i shall continue deceiving myself till i die,
because the truth hurts.

I don't understand why parents only listen to one side of the story,
do you expect me to go and say hello to her friends when i don't even know them,
she also did not even say hello to my friends,
did i complaint no, and her friends got no right to judge about me,
they say i'm rude what about them, idiotic assholes,
they too are rude too, why didn't they say hello to me,
if they say i would, fine forget it all the blame is mine now,
its all my bloody fault for not saying hello,
i'll make sure you lose face infront of them the next time they come, trust me,
i don't understand what parents are thinking now,
the fault doesn't lie on me alone, it lies on everyone,
he scold me i tell the truth all those shit, he doesn't believe,
whats the use, one day i'll just slam the door and say GOODBYE,
is not entirely my fault alright, she too shows attitude to my friends,
RJC big, i got attitude their problem is it, they find it a problem then get lost,
i'm piss and down, but what i can do,
i can only weep like a kid thats all, i bottle up all my feelings, thats the best way.

Alright i just came back again after meeting my girls at junction eight,
my sister friends are like still here, one word "ass",
nevermind today we had chemistry and it was quite easy?
but i don't think i can obtain an high pass,
cause it was covalent bonding and i out ionic bonding,
like i'm so dumb can, forget it, its ok,
Nebo tomorrow to study, but i doubt we can,
meeting Jia Mei at junction eight at 9,
after the exam went to junction eight, quarells again,
then off i went, came home quarell with my sister,
she make me lose face, i make her lose face back,
and hence i went out to meet them again, and they talked about ghost stories,
i'm damn scared to go to OBS now can, i'm freak out,
well i'll stick real close to Jeanette cause we had common stuffs,
and thats all for the day.
Amanda; Don't make me say what you said about your friends, you'll regret.

Well, i just went to the gym with Jeanette, Charmaine Lew & Monkey,
i woke up at 8.45, so i started watching the cartoon first,
and changed and out to get the keys,
Monkey & Charmaine Lew were late,
we went there to work out but Charmaine Lew was literally eating there,
Oh man, then we were talking non-stop and end up all sat down,
we talked about OBS and stuffs and Charmaine Lew got so freak out,
cause i said there are crocodiles, and she went oh man really uh?
we chatted there till 11 plus and Monkey, Jeanette and Charmaine went off home,
i went home and now i shall go mug for my Chemistry,
its the last lap already, put in all your effort, you will see results,
Tuition-ing later and going for my baby cousin one month old celebration.
Charmaine Ng; thanks for your present, though it was your last day yesterday, but you'll be back soon uh? Please look at the General Office outside for a yellow star, your name is on it.(:

Alright tomorrow is English Paper two can't do much for it so Don't study,
well Maths Paper Two i thought i will give up and stuffs,
but the first question make me perservere on to do and do,
& i know how to do, its definitely easier than Paper one,
After a gruelling two and half hours paper,
"Deleting Maths Formula...",
"Instore Physics Formula...."
Well this is how it went on for like 4 days,
But now all the important or rather "More Brain Juice" paper are over,
now i shall slack but not for english i will put my upmost effort,
went to junction eight after our papers,
went to get Sara Darling Present,
went home and wrap, then off to meet her, she was like shocked when i gave her,
haha don't be shocked, hope you like the Present though your Birthday is on November 12,
went for tuition and we were watching the secret while eating our lunch,
nice show uh? Off for tuition and saw Ian, Huan Ni, Haiqail, Ashley & a Saint Andrew's guy?
yeap stood with them and chatted with them awhile,
well Ashley got a Hamster for her Birthday, its cute i was looking at it,
Ashley name it Boob, haha cute name, then i went home with her.
4 More days to Tall Friend's Birthday, Jia Wei; the Shortie,
&6 More days to End of EOY papers, meanwhile Mug on people.

Alright i shall just post before i get my head into studying,
this few days are gruelling its like? Studying daily,
& my dad keep saying this to me,"you pass all, get anything you want, fail one, say goodbye to all your things."
& he keep saying i did not when i did?
It seriously unfair, its just that i'm walking to get a glass of water also wrong,
then what do you expect me to do then,
don't drink, don't eat, fine.
Bio paper was kind of screwed up, but hey at least i know a few cause i did mug,
I was using the Biology paper to fold a heart,
sorry trees, did not mean too, so I wrote this ," How do you mend a borken heart? Use staples.
&You could mend it by opening up the staples and be yourself again, what for waste your tears on parents who do not even care for you, you should just concentrate, if they really still don't care about you, run away from home, thats what i intend to do since Secondary one.
Poa, screwed but i knew some, after the paper i went home.
My birthday i know it will suck for this year, i can only say this year, bad luck year,
But pray for the best.

I totally screwed up my whole paper one,
it totally sucks, when i was suppose to write only 350 words i wrote 621 words?
FCUK, now i'm regretting for not changing,
i'm like crying over spilled milk but i'm wrong,
no crying is needed, i guess i got to buck up in my Paper Two and i hope Mrs Soh don't get bored reading my passage,
maybe she enjoy it, that will be a miracle,
but most probably i'm flunking my english,
i've to prepare for the worst then. ):