alrights i am finally able to blog at the school com lab? i am so HAPPY!(:
yaaaaaaay!((:
that darren yeo is gonna piss me off soon!!he love typing nonsense in my account!)):
alright these few days sucks?
my mother is like comparing me with my sis so what her result better BIG meh?
RJC& GYSS only diff is one is three one is four BIG meh?
you born me this way, you hate me so much dump me away i will be happier?
you dislike me why did you could have aborted me then, at least i would forget i have such a painful memory?
sighhs forget i retain you will disown me, disown lor i will be happier,
why not just throw me into the orphange?
forget it, i dont take your as my parents anymore.
yesterday i was real happy with my happy family(:
darren yeo,shih quan,ryan chan, jia wei&zuo yang
eilene vanessa jia mei demi ashley me.
we are a happy family we all had fun in cable car& the boat ride we took videos photo!!(:
yaaaaaay i love you guys!!((:
alright i am sad& happy, funny?

YorkYing; cheer up!((: your big name is on my blog again. must smile dont scare of the meet the parents session!
Charmaine; its up to you, if you give her that eye she give you that eye you think she happy?
she is piss with your attitude why not just clear up the mess so everything will be fine.
a friend is definitely better than a enemy. if you want an enemy then go ahead.

this morning i was awaken by my aunt cause she wanted to go jogging she pulled me along, nevermind i just follow her. fetch my younger cousin to his swimming pool there went back to bishan park jogged with my aunts and younger cousin, 10 went back to RI swimming pool fetch my two cousins went to see my aunt new house, went home&out again. ate at WISMA my dad fetch me to my tuition centre,after tuition i went to buy met my mum at somerset, she went to buy stuffs just follow went back to bishan bought stuffs went to my granny house ate&home.

YorkYing;nothing is impossible in this world, put in effort and you will see the results,believe in yourself, a miracle may happen.

ok i am like posting for the theird time today,who cares i love blogging (:
alright YorkYing ask me out, so i said ok since i was such in a good mood today plus PeiQi birthday so we four went out me,YorkYing PeiQi XueFen we four went out, went to meet YorkYing first she was complaining it was hot, i started saying her in the sms its so cooling here lalalas, ok the bus finally reach her bus stop she boarded and off we went to tpy, PeiQi was so early ok waited for XueFen finally we decided after 20 minutes sitting there we decided to go to marina, sat 56 there reach there we went to arcade alright PeiQi was really funny playing with all the games there, went to suntec talk to YorkYing, i keep winning her in quarelling oh YorkYing dont be sad, we walked back to marina they wanted to see the SEA i went off leaving YorkYing with them,sorry girl i hope your SUN wasnt too bright,well i have a phrase for her behind every cloud there is always LIM YORKYING, lalala sat 162 for an hour before reaching home, my sis went to changi for a birthday party? so i went out with my parents, i was talking nonsense, my mum started her nagging all those shit sat down&eat, went to junction eight to collect my photo&i started quarelling with my mother
"you better go for your chinese tuition tomorrow"mum
"whatever"me
"your chinese results aint that fantastic"mum
"i know"me
"daddy i dont want tuition this tuition i can sleep for like an hour waste of money"me
"ok,mummy cancel it for her then"daddy
"dont everything listen to her"mum
"please lah i never fail my chinese before for peat sake:me
"dont think you are smart"mum
"i am always"me
&tada i won them i can dont go for chinese tuition already(: went to thomson bought ben&jerrys i told my dad i wanted it.ok i bought it &home!(:

i'll be a happy girl(:
i won all quarell today!(:

from this very day hour minute second, i will forget all my troubles& try my very best to smile in front of everyone(:
second uncle you will always stand a place in my heart i will never forget you.

its may 19th,PEIQI'S BIRTHDAY. happy birthday girl.
yesterday i could not go with you girls as i had to attend to something,i'm sorry.
this morning i filed for a police report for my lost wallet, i told them what i lost, well i dont care whether the money or ez-link is lost, i only care for my memories. all the prints we had took for the past three years are all missing gone forever, thats what i am concern my wallet the person can have it i can go get another one just return me my prints please thats all i am asking for. sighhs sat there for 20 minute waiting for the police to type in the details, they ask if we wanted them to investigate this case my dad said no need, but i wanted them to investigate sighhs nevermind, went to take my ez-link photo and i went home.

once again happy birthday PEIQI.

sighhs i seriously hope you girls had fun.
this morning my mother scolded me just because i lost my wallet she refuse to give me any coins, in the end is my aunty gave me i teared all the way to school sighhs, i wonder do i have any kin in this world maths i got 22.8 sighhs first time such a low score, SS did mind map, CHEMISTRY, we watch just follow the law it was funny, thank you miss chew, Recess ate went up for POA she teach on cheques today i understand for once sighhs,after school they all went home so did i, my dad came to fetch me early at about 5 plus went there sighhs i cried last day of it, we all just sat there all silent, dad fetch me home about 10 cause he saw i was really sad, home.

i will miss you forever&i will regret forever too. a handphone can be repaired but a crack&stab heart can never be repair.sighhs

i hope you girls did have fun i'm sorry i cant attend.

sighhs this morning HAC, physics i fail by just 4 marks i beg for marks none given forget it, went to the hall for english i failed by just by 0.5 utterly disapointed sighhs i controlled my tears, Recess i cried, went up for chemistry i failed by 3.5 marks haiis, 11.45 we were released for the MOMO show sat the bus with YorkYing, reach national library the hall we did our flower first, went in for the show, it is about how people treasure their time, the show lasted till 4 the bus was late reached school went to meet them at thomsom plaza i lost my wallet it must be between the 15minutes interval it got stolen i told my dad, he filed a police report for me.

GOD; you took away three loved ones from me& now you took away my memories for three years, do you want my life now?

thank you YorkYing&JiaMei.sighhs

sighhs this morning i reach school sat there alone, i received a message from my dad, why must misfortune always fall on me everytime? history i pass but its just border line i could have easily be the lowest in class, i teared during history i doubt anyone see, went for CME i keep tearing, physics library recess sighhs chinese went up i cried&cried i keep asking myself have i done anything wrong in the past? went for biology finally i settle down i teared abit but its not obvious,assembly& i went home.

i dont know whether crying so much will help? sighhs cant i just be free of misfortune?
i wonder when will it stop? haiis leave me there to die&suffer all alone.

sighhs i am such a failure. this morning took back our english paper one kind of ok? cause i could have screwed up, 17/30&16.5/30 for both i forget which is which went off for PE it was raining so no 2.4 cant run, went to play van phone& sit with chaili, went for POA i got 33 for my POA overall sighhs how low, Recess ate went up for chinese Zhiying& me sat with WeiJie got back our papers, message YorkYing lazy talk cheer up YorkYing, went for maths i failed like 28 sighhs i am a failure sucks, waited for YorkYing with PeiQi&Charmaine, Claudia cried cheer up girl work harder for EOY, i fell& bleed great let me bleed to death how i wish i can die due to lost of blood.

YorkYing' cheer up nothing is impossible in thsi world, dont lose the battle fight it on, one day you will win it this battle, tired rest awhile&carry on no more energy we help you fight.

i finally have a private blog no one can view it i can vent my anger on it& sadness sighhs a bad start today i forget to bring YorkYing's newpapers rush back and take reach school at 7.20 biology i failed 13/80 the whole class failed none pass, CME i got scolded go on call my parents that i slept, SS sighhs thomas ask me what happen i ignored sorry ): RECESS they discuss what they did it really hurts me hence i walked off, chinese lesson i teared i really could not stand it anymore it hurts me deep down inside is like two person on earth but at diff side of the earth sighhs, thanks YorkYing& ZhiYing. paper one 42.5/70 paper two 44/70 lousy i aint the highest POA 30/100 sighhs bad score how dumb am i? sighhs after school played ball...played for awhile thanks Janice for your advice well your is the same case as mine i will try to adapt? i hope? ran one round at the field with Janice, YorkYing timed for us. went back to sit down we played the animal game? all went home after that.

i hate you.sighhs.

sighhs today is mother's day but i aint happy at all
i woke up & i got scolded for no apparent reason?
forget it i slam the door&walked out of my house,
i went out alone first time all by myself no one to talk to me,
took a bus to junction eight,
went there by myself looking at it,sighhs,
i took a train back again& reach home,
went up to my house all the way to the top sat there&pondered,
is it me in the wrong?
is it me who caused all these troubles?
sighs, ending my life will end everything immediately but the tornument will still be there.
The start of your happiness,is the start of my tradegy.

steamboat-ed with YorkYing,PeiQi,HweeChang,XueFen,Jeanette,JiaMei,Vanessa.

met them up at toa payoh, went to meet PeiQi&YorkYing first.

the rest came at about 5.30 sat MRT to marina.

i shut up all the way,sighhs why must things turn out this way,

sighhs sat bus 400 to the steam boat place.

they started to ask people for help for the table, finally there was someone

settle down &started cooking,JiaMei was obsessed with her crabs&eggs?

the rest just went crapping making us laugh, real great laugh

started taking loads of photos, we cooked food for each other.
message my aunt to fetch me, 9.15 my aunt came to fetch me, fetch my cousin,
went pass swiss hotel,

SHELL-ed home.

sighhs, how i wish the clock would turn back for me.
躲得了一时，躲不了一世 ...

i wonder if falling from this height will i die,

i am hurt on the inside

&that will be a forever hurt,

why must life be like this,

i've gone through so much of problems

why must there be more??

i am already collapsing on the inside,

putting up a strong front,

&you think i am fine,

sighhs i am have nothing much to say already,

i just hope the clock can turn back,

wont that be a good thing?

everyone will be happy in this world

why is GOD making us collapse,

making us strong?

making us independent?

sighhs, i give up on everything.

YorkYing,PeiQi,Aloysius,ShihQuan,Marcus; thanks for listening to my troubles

i have troubled you guys too much hence now i will stop telling people my troubles.

sighs two different world of people?
this morning all thanks to my mum i was late, she said she will call for a cab but she cant call one and at 7 she told me go it bus? haiis forget it,sms ashley she say she will sit the bus so...me ryan and her walk into school late but we were early? maths teacher went through some stuffs,SS got back failed? sighs i am going to flunk everything sighs, went on to chem fail also but a good fail,recess almost all stalls no food? POA fail too? haiis i am such a failure, i pondered during POA, some things in life we just have to let go...went to mac with them peiqi left we sat there played games? went on to MOS charmaine kept playing with my hair? they followed me to my bus stop waited with me, thanks.

sighs maybe i am really at fault for all these things happening...
you hate me so much;just kill me
you hurt me;&i will hurt myself
sighhs

PeiQi;cheer up, we will help you.

sighs is it good to be the last day of the exams?
reach school i went to parade square,thomas was there talk to him assembly played?went up to exam room last time going to step in...the whole class was here except five students,one hour and exams are officially over...went to meet peiqi went to mac with her and peiqi saw...&she started laughing followed janice to buy her noodles she going to rick house so followed her buy food went off to meet yy went to sit at MOS yy treated us to milk tea thanks. charmaine come we went to change off to marina, sat 56 almost got bus-sick sat for very long, finally reached marina got off and walk to GV bought ticket for the malay ghost show? "dont look behind",went to mac &eat,watched the show me char and peiqi screamed yy was so calm she wasnt even scared, scream throughtout the whole show, after the show we started scaring each other, walked to suntec wanted to play arcade but we were in school U so cant, walked to esplanade and they waited bus with me thanks, i waited for 162 but it did not come so i just take 56 reach novena i changed to 167&next 410 reach home at 7.30.

you hate me;dump me into the bin
you dislike me;dump me into a orphanage
you dont love me;you should have aborted me
you scold;Ah-Lian? sighhs
you hurt me;&i shall hurt myself
you want me out;i shall do it
you want me to die;i will gladly do it.

end of exams good/bad thing?

hello!
Peiqi is here to help samantha to post'ya?
her comp was ... erm, yeah?
if you're smart enough, you can link arh.

All right, her grandfather was in the hospital.
he will be all right one'ya?
Samantha, don't be over-sad.
cheer up.
Everything will be fine.
(:

Okay, samantha gonna do well for her exams, for sure.
(:
so, i wish her all the best!
'You can do it.
(:

Samantha lim jiayi, my boyfriend. (: