Love others, the way you want others to love you.

ENOUGH OF ALL THESE RUBBISH, I HAVE GOT ENOUGH OF IT ALREADY, YOU TREAT ME LIKE AS THOUGH I'M A INVISIBLE PERSON, LIKE HELLO, I'M HERE NOT INVISIBLE OK? I TALK TO YOU, YOU GAVE ME A COLD SHOULDER AND WHEN I ASK YOU SOME THINGS AGAIN, YOU CALLED ME TO SHUT UP. & WHEN AMANDA ASK YOU SOMETHING YOU GO, YES, WHAT ABOUT MINE? AM I LIKE A NO-NO HUMAN AT ALL? I'M STILL PRESENT OK? THOUGH I ALWAYS QUARELL WITH YOU, AND YOU ALWAYS LIKE TO COMPLAINT ABOUT ME, I STILL TREAT YOU AS MY MOTHER. HOW MUCH HATRED I HAD WITH YOU, I JUST SWALLOW IT DOWN AND I DON'T WANT TO RAKE UP ALL THE PAST, CAUSE I BELIEVE THE FUTURE WILL BE A BETTER ONE, BUT I'M SERIOUSLY WRONG, I'M WRONG ABOUT EVERYTHING, ABOUT HOW WILL THE FUTURE BE LIKE, HOW WILL EVERYTHING BE LIKE. I'M JUST SO WRONG, I'M IN A STATE WHERE I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHO I AM, WHERE AM I NOW? YOU ARE MAKING ME LIKE THAT, NOT THAT I WANT TO, YOU ALWAYS DEMORALIZED ME BY SAYING THAT I WILL FAIL, AND YES I HAVE THIS MINDSET NOW THAT I MAYBE CHANNELED TO 4N NEXT YEAR, WHO GAVE ME THIS THOUGHT, WHO MAKE ME THINK LIKE THIS? ITS YOU, YOU TOLD ME YOU WILL NEVER PASS, YOU NEVER EVEN REWARD ME WHEN I DO WELL, ITS ALWAYS DADDY, ALL YOU SAY IS YOU CAN DO BETTER THAN THAT RIGHT? WELL YES I CAN, BUT CAN'T YOU JUST REAWRD ME OR GIVE ME SOME ENCOURAGING WORDS THAT WILL PUSH ME FURTHER AND LET ME STUDY EVEN HARDER THAN BEFORE, THATS THE REASON WHY I DON'T WANT TO SHOW YOU MY REPORT BOOK ALWAYS, YOU WILL ALWAYS NAG AND SAY YOU ARE JUST SO DUMB. YES I'M DUMB BUT LOOK AT YOURSELF BEFORE SCOLDING PEOPLE, I'M DISAPOINTED AND ANGRY, DISAPOINTED CAUSE I HAVE A MOTHER WHO DON'T REALLY CARE THAT SHE HAS TWO DAUGHTERS, IT SEEMS LIKE SHE HAS ONLY ONE, I'M ANGRY CAUSE I CAN'T TOLERATE IT ANYMORE. I HAD ENOUGH OF EVERYTHING, TEASING IN SCHOOL, EVERYTHING, LITERALLY EVERYTHING, I HAVE NO GOAL IN LIFE NOW, I JUST TAKING A STEP DAY BY DAY, HOPING IT WOULD BE A BETTER ONE BUT IT TURN OUT TO BE SOMETHING WORST OFF, I'M TIRED, THATS ALL I CAN SAY.