the sky was grey
but i hoped so still
for a shooting star
upon i wish
to watch the stars with you
i searched the sky but there were none to see
hold my hand
hold it tight
& teach me to love
though i already know ..
deep inside ;
the dried tears ;
the faded smiles will always remain
an unforgotten memory
Promises are Fragile.
I dont know what got this link to me maybe to my parents, i found it meaningful.
i got it from my friends website.

Coach Debriefing.














































Oh we so Love Singapore!




































JiaMei; Sammy; Demi legs!
































Our Practical!

Jeanette's Birthday cake from 2e3!

Alright i'm blogging yet again,

it has been my daily routine now, how good uh?

Anyway, i had POA in the morning, we got caught playing BINGO,

& jia mei got to sit with Jia We,next lesson was SS,

we did our work slowly as we had a chemistry test the next period,
went for chemistry mrs quah did not come, hence the test will be tomorrow,
Mother Tougue next, then was Recess,

went for Biology we had SPA today, went downstaires for Practical,

Demi pick up a bush of leaves and said this,

"Roses are Red, Violtes are blue, Though these leaves are green, but i still love you."

So nice right, we burst out laughing at this poem,

we told ashley and she went these leaves aint blue nor red,

we wanted to tell Miss Ngiam but she ignored us,

i plucked out the leaf and she diao me,

went for Physics next. hell loads of fun, we ate seaweed infront of mr gan and Miss Guo,

i love Miss Guo! she's so nice!

anyway we sang to her that poem she laughed too!

she treated us to Coffee as she promise us, & monkey was being called "Shuai Ge",

for like almost half the day, want to know why? its for us to know, for you to find out!

they had training, this team is improving tremendously,

went for tuition all alone, one to one,

met my mum, i saw SEAN & FIONA! he made me say hello to him!So here it is HELLO!

went home after that, if i tell you i'm happy, i'm lying.

Posting time now,
it was Jeanette's birthday today, happy birthday!
went to school as usual, talk talk & talk,
Secondary Threes had Sexual Education talk, Monkey bully me, HweeChang save me!
Went off for Physics there was Wuhan people in our class,
did my physics test, i'm bound to fail again,
Recess, English, Vanessa noob, she could not answer Miss Aljunied questions,
sat there for three periods, my ass was hurting badly,
went off for CME, the china people introduce themselves,
one of them was like this " Xin Jia Po shi ge hen mei li hen mei li de cheng shi,
zai Wuhan kan dao zao pain, ye lai le zhe li, zhen shi ming bu xu chuan!"
HAHA, he say until damn loud, whatever he say we al clap and say "HAO!"
it was hiliarious lah!
CME was pver, we bought lunch, ate and went off to play ball,
we played about three hours of ball, had so much fun playing it,
played a few round of matches,
finally all were tired and Mr Phua also ask us to stop so home we went,
my mama call me telling me that my Big uncle is in hospital,
i called them wait for me, they don't want nevermind,
i shall ask my dad to fetch me down one day, i hope he is fine. ):

Actually i'm kind of lazy to post but nevermind,
i shall make a quick one,
i skip HAC today i'm bored of it, Mr leong last day was today,
we will miss you! ):
Alright first period to third period was maths i copied one piece of homework,
& the rest i did it with Ashley,
we were laughing our ass of when i told ashley that 81+5=89!
how dumb of me!
Social Studies was next, how bored, i slept, great!
Recess, Chinese test again, i'm bound to fail! ):
Oh lord please send someone to teach me Chinese!
The Wuhan people came yesterday, they will be in school today and tomorrow!
Oh man my class will be like bullying them!
Alright next was History, i had fun highliting the stuffs, & i completed my Mind map!
Played ball & they went for their match,
i waited for Yorkying and we cabbed down,
they lost 29 to 26,
its alright girls.
Back to school, i was piss off totally,
homed, my papa went to the sign my house agreement, i don't know how much,
but i heard from my Sister is 3mil, but not so fast move cause we haven found buyers yet,
& hence i dont know when i will be moving!
Alright i'm bored! ):
Guangyang C' divison: cheer up! its only the first match, jia you! dont be demorelized by just a match the refree maybe biased but think maybe you did foul, so improve on it uh? you girls still have three match to go ya? Fight your best, dont ever Give Up!

Lets see i've got biology in the morning,
had theory & test for three periods, miss Ngiam was piss with us today,
she was like " how many times had i ask you to not eat sweets in my class?!",
we continued talking & my mum promise to buy me a sport shoe and two tees,
she suddenly told me i was like,
whao why suddenly you are so nice to me,
anyway it was PE, we played basketball, find the sec ones and twos,
off for our own recess now, Chinese, had composition test,
i had my good rest sleeping from 12 to 12.50, how great?
alright we had POA after that, oh how i dread this subject,
i was playing with Jia Mei,
after school we found out we did have our homework i helped darren do his work,
now darren you owe me a favour,
After school was traingning, we train & played & laugh,
but maybe things went wrong? i don't know,
half way through i left as i had tuition, i almost slept during tuition,
my mind wasnt there so as my soul, after tuition i went home quickly.
"biasity" this word always etched in my mind.

Alright this is my 200th post,
actually i wanted to keep it for the first of August cause its a new month,
but my hands get itchy not blogging,
though i don't know whether people do read my blog,
this morning me & my sister woke up at the same time again,
maybe i woke her up,
anyway she was off to the Zoo cause her friend had free admission tickets,
i stayed at home till 11, & went out with my parents,
went to eat my lunch and i went for the interview on coffee,
i sat my ass there for 10 minutes answering some show cards,
& there i got $24 bucks how great,
i called my dad to pick me up,
went home first, watch a little TV and off i went for tuition,
i slept cause i was God damn tired,
after tuition i went to meet Charmaine for basketball,
as usual i was late, she was shooting all alone,
sorry uh! anyway i got there,
my cousin's friend Malcom was there, he's a freaking act cool guy,
i won the ABC, the basketball loves me today,
CHARMAINE LEW DID WIN TOO!( you wanted it uh?)
i went to buy my dinner & up to my granny house,
watched High School Musical,
well i love the song that Gabriella sang alone,
i shall get my soundtrack and find out what is the song,
went home after watching the show.
I wish upon a fairytale, but it turn out to be a lie.

Alright i shall take the chance to blog before my dad comes for us,
i typically had nothing to do today,
i woke up feeling real dizzy,
i'm like spinning in my own world,
nevermind i continued sleeping till 10,
woke up for the Campussuperstar, my sis woke up too,
so we ended up watching it together,
my dad bought lunch back for us to eat,
i used the com till 2,
change place with my sister, it was my turn to watch the SCV,
i watched till 3, i left while my sister was sleeping,
tuition at toa payoh with Jia Wei again,
we totally had a "HAHA" time laughing,
the bimbo wore that dress again.
after tuition, he was off to Kovan Melody while i headed home.

In the bus i had this question pop in my mind, how do you consider a friend your true friend.
well this is what i think,
true friends help you in anything,
true friends help you up when you fall,
true friends share joy with you,
true friends share tears with you,
true friends will never ever backstab you,
true friends will never leave you in a lurch,
true friends are one that tell you off straight,
true friends are one that love you for who you are,
true friends are always there for you.
these are what i think qualifys to be a true friend,
if you have friends that are not all of the above,
you can jolly well kick them off your "true friends" list.

Basketball girls with Mr Leong! he will be much miss!(:
















My sister spongebob towel! we must share! yay!(:

Lolipop with bubble gum and cuttle fish! my da jie bought for me!(:

Pratas!(((:

Charmaine, Me, Yorkying!(:

Peiqi, Miss Chew, Me, Jeanette!(:

Dirty Shoes!(:

Me and Eilene!(: #23

Me and ahhCHANG!(:

Me and ahhNETTE!(:

Peiqi wrote this yay!(:

Jeanette wrote this for me! HAAWTTY SAMY!((:

Sucessful Picture yay! Peiqi, yy, me!(:

Unglamed! Lim yorkying, lie backwards!(:

Alright the scary day came finally,
i did not have a good night rest! ):
reached school tease charmaine lew,
went for English, shari presented, i still have a long way to go!
next was maths, our class will be spilt again,
i will have miss wong, together with thomas, junwen, shih quan & ashley!
POA, i left my file and shoe bag there!
Recess, chemistry, i was worrying about my shoe bag and tag,
so i had no mood at all.
Rush to POA room and got my things! (:
reported at the hall, first runner sat bus there,
went to the starting point, i got damn nervous,
the race started i ran in 9th, tag Eilene's hand,
& off she ran, Altheletes were damn fast, me and yorkying was shocked!
walked back to the start point, waited for felicia's arrival!
she came in 19th, i was disapointed but i know we have done our best,
& achieve our goals, below 20, we got 19th.
Mr leaong was leaving us! )): *crys!
i almost teared but held back, announcment of all results, we took tons of photos,
after that we took a group photo with mr leong, we went off to Prata house,
charmaine was screaming for a toliet!
went there ate, chat, & home we went!(:
Photos in next post.

Basketball girls; Yorkying, Monkey, Amanda, Xuefen; don't be disapointed, we may have lose, but we lose with pride, we arent boastful or what, good luck for the next road relay, i'm sure that this year is just that there are more competitive runners! cheer up!

3E1 boys; i love you guys, you people ran fast, & came in 4th, 3e1 is proud of you guys! nice job!(:

Some pictures took quite some time ago & some new ones enjoy!(:

My coloured test tube!(: cute uh?

ME&SARA lolipop!(:

The conversation between me & sean, i found it hilarious!(:

The lolipop me & sara bought!(:

Alright, its E-learning today,
hence no school!(: YAY-ness!
i'm so happy, i ordered MAC,
& it went like this, " for the order status please press 1",
i was laughing like a maddy to yorkying!(:
HAHA!
so damn funny can, alright we did my chemistry,
while yorkying was doing her maths,
my class people help me thank you!(:
it was a test by the way and we all got the same answer!
maths i pass 13/15, i got answers!
alright once i was done with my maths,
i was free,
called MAC, it delievered at 9.40! yay, BIG BREAKFAST!
Alright i still have 2 more hours to go before the next homework is up!
lets watch TV for the time being!(:

Lim yorkying; STOP DOING YOUR WORK!(: TALK TO ME!(:
we are opposite each other but we talk on msn!(: HAHA!(:

i'm continuing the post,
i went to school with yorkying after elearning,
saw Asho on the bus, she is the first runner too!
i damn freaking STRESSS!
reach school, saw them did their 5 stations,
off for tuition to meet Sara!
went for tuition, 6 i went home!
i was feeling damn nervous the minute i think of "ROAD RELAY"!
i hope everything will turn out well, and hope i don't disappoint 3e1!
By the way, Xue Fen, Monkey, YorkYing, Amanda,Eilene, Felicia, CuiXia,
good luck to you people!(:

YAY!(:
tomorrow there will be no school for secondary three students,
as we have E-learning day!
3e1 people, pleaseeeeeeee online! lets share answers!
Alright, i was so sleepy today, knock yourself samantha!
Morning we were in the AVA with 3e3, on a talk on business, how great POA!
after that was air con again, i played BINGO with tan jia mei for half the lesson,
the other half i was playing SIMS on my moblie!
Got my ass down for Recess!
next up was english, i was moody cause i was thinking!
after english was CME,
i hate MRS TEO! she sucks lahs, i sleep she come scold me and pinch me!
mad woman! anyway she make us stay back cause we forget to bring our books,
we were all damn piss with her!
After school training, tiring! ): winnie accompany me wait yay!(:

HweeChang; cheer up!(:

Oh ok great, my dad bought a new CPU!(:
thats a happy thing right?
but the worst thing i realise is all my pictures, my speech are all gone.
sighs. ):
Alright, morning i was discussing about road relay,
now i'm the first runner, the behind people i don't know.
Maths was first up, i played BINGO with Tan Jia Mei.
SS, studying for my test, but i ended up talking!
Recess, then was Chinese, i got damn low,
disapointment only. ): i failed my composition, then i got God of a hell low for the tests,
clap hands!
Forget it, my chinese grades are dropping from a A1 to a C6, how nice?
Next was history, miss vasuki took us for a period only,
she gave out paper on project, Monkey, me, Jeanette & Jia Mei one group.
We played bingo hell of a fun, played basketball next, Junction eight-ed,
homed.
My road relay number is 23, my last year register wish me luck,
& please don't talk to me on friday, i am damn nervous!

Alright the laptop is once again landed in my hands!
short post, i got to rush my test out before thursday and learn my SS test!
Morning, Biology SPA practice, PE, i lost my shirt,
next was Recess, Chinese, eating my Push Pop!
POA next, Dm suddenly walk in, & sit beside Jia Wei!
HAHA, poor boy!
& miss koh said this " You people must be very happy cause i need to leave the class now"
OMG, i almost jump!
so happy, 5 weeks don't have monday POA already.
after school training,tuition-ed, homed.

Yes, fine i'm good for nothing. Are you happy now? Scream at me, i don't feel anything, neither will i scold back, i'll just keep it in my heart as a needle pierce into my heart. Scold me more, thank you.

Alright my older sister is out of town,
she's off to Brunei with her school to play some games there,
she sms my dad telling him that the reporters are all crowding out to them,
& the police must help them open a way out,
as they are the first school to get into the palace,
how great?
she always get to go holiday with her school, but not me.
Primary 6 that year i wanted to go Australia with my class,
but you did not allow,
you just say we went before don't go anymore.
Oh fine, i took that excuse.
Now you two are treating me so good,
i don't want to be someone who take over her only when she is not around,
i hate the feeling, i hate you.
i feel unwanted, i'm like someone whom you can throw and kick about,
yes i get use to the feeling already, cause thats how you two treat me,
i don't like it, i hate it rather.
its killing me inside, outside and my heart.
i don't feel anything anymore, i'm numb.
sighs.

This song is meaningful, to me.
its speaks like my mind.
作曲:林俊杰
感觉梦醒着
感觉心痛着
感觉你不在了
谁来证明爱是存在的
我们被困着
被过去骗着
这一切都不一样
世界怎么了
难道说选择了忘记
而解放了自己
是否就拥有挑战爱情的勇气
当时光交成在一起成
说不清的思绪
我却只要那段最美的回忆
哦...
memory 飘荡如空气
明知你在那里
却又难以跨越的距离
我们在放弃
涂白了记忆
以为就可以伪装无邪的美丽
难道说选择了忘记
而解放了自己
是否就拥有挑战爱情的勇气
当时光交成在一起
成说不清的思绪
我却只要那段最美的回忆
难道说选择了忘记
而解放了自己
是否就拥有挑战爱情的勇气
当时光交成在一起
成说不清的思绪
我却只要那段最美的回忆
我却只要那段
最美的回忆....

Alright, its a quick post i promise cause i have no mood at all,
morning had HAC,
walked till my leg hurt like hell,
went for POA, darren & the rest skip assembly,
hence they arent aware the class went to the hall,
we hence all proceeded to the Hall for the E-learning day briefing,
how lucky can we get, stuck at the computer for 6 hours,
after briefing, we went back for POA,
those we skip assembly were called up,
Ryan got caught by DM, next was SS,
& next was Chemistry, Miss Tan took us today,
next off for Chinese, oh how i dread it,
Had spelling & off for recess,
after recess was Biology, i slept for a whole two period,
next was physics, how great,
i love Miss Pauline Guo. Played ball after school tuition-ed, home.

Sighs, i don't know why you want to make me hate you.

OMG! i forget to blog this out!
Alright for those who are Anti-Adeline,
you girls/guys can laugh your ass out,
anyway Adeline is a bitch she has a serious attiutude problems and she is very very very irritating!
Hence, the boys and girls in my class like so hate her!
thats so great right? no it isn't, cause this proves she sucks!
hahahaha!(:
Anyway, you know we got the sticker from youth day right,
so apparently some guy in my class use his to write,
& the sticker says " Suck my Balls"!
its damn funny can, so someone cheeky stick it on her back,
she got the sticker on her back for like an hour or less she walked all the way to physics with it on!
The whole class was snapping pictures sending around!
i'll post it up another day!(:
Its hilarious!(:
This serves you right, bitch!
& Hello, you are stupid for nuts, i hope teacher minus your marks for Maths!
LETS CHEER!

Alright i'll make a quick post cause i have to do chineseeee!
well nothing special except for me being a limping person wearing a slipper to school,
& its racial harmony today, i'm a racist lah!
i was telling thomas its very cooling, obviously he got piss!
haha! he wore a long sleeve costume!
Anyway first period was Teo Chye Lian she wasn't here,
hence we got the CLB teacher he's so cute!
we started playing songs, singing like crazy people!
Next lesson was Physics, i listened to music and also did my english!
before Aljunied kills me! she chase me like some mad woman!
Recess, juniors went off for their match, they lost, its alright.
English, went to miss Carol Koh homeroom, she is darn funny!
she go like" people if you people have no one to check your speech for you, look for vanessa and samantha they are very free!"
we were gossiping, OMG we are going into aunty's mode!
Soon everyone was tired and Aljunied came in!
well we took a photo of eeyore and that darren sleeping, how funny!
Alright, Hall! Boredem, sat there watch some parade and i watched the UMBRELLA!
haha! its damn hilarious but the girls dance well!
did my SPA after school, i totally screwed my Physics, i'm damn disapointed with myself,
i copied Ming Wei's work, how great.
I did not know how thomas managa to balance it, what a miracle.
Its obvious he's smart, i'm stupid!
Alright down for Chemistry, thank you Martin,
first i was suppose to time how long the magnesium ribbon took to disolve,
first time i did i forget to press the start timer button,
nevermind i tried it the second time, i forget to press stop,
dumb right? i minus marks, shit you samantha, you dumb ass can't do a experiment properly!
Played ball after school, i won one round!(:
Went home after that!

Peiqi; take care, don't stress your body out.
Yorkying; i'm trying my best to write already, sorry if i let you get low marks.): don't worry i'll do my best.

Alright we had boxercise early in the morning,
had some fruits in the canteen for each class but i didn't eat,,
went up for Physics, played,
went down for recess, today with the sec ones,
went for english lesson in the AVA, two periods with miss koh,
she showed us High School Musical,
the last period it was miss aljunied turn,
she brief us on some project stuffs,
went off for CME after that, mrs teo got some stuffs on,
Mr teo took us instead, the whole class was in chaos,
They were playing hangman with the teacher on the board,
school ended, waited for the team,
went to buy some stuffs to eat,
coach came, he taught us some skills,
waited long for the VCR to come, finally it came,
watch some international matches, real good players,
i did not play ball, went home after that.

Sorry HweeChang, Alison, Peiqi, Yorkying, Charmaine, Eilene and Vanessa, i felt moody today.

& HAPPY BIRTHDAY HWEECHANG( might not be able to post tomorrow so here is it.)
i give up.

Alright i'm in the school computer lab,
or rather library computer lab,
weeeeeeee!(:
VANESSA; HweeChang she requested her name to be above yours!(;
Hweechang; your name is here too!
alright, we had CIP on saturday!(;
so lame, fold stars & your hand ache like hell,
we had two sandwiches!(:
vanessa stop staring at me!(:
ok fine! your correcting me!
we fold about 2000 stars!
miss vasuki was lazy she did not come! ass!(:
oh lala no more blogging, vanessa tay keeps staring!(:

alright i'm given like two hours to complete my so called "project",
i bluff my dad, cause i wanted my laptop back,
i got to hurry he is watching over me,
lessons as usual,
SPA i did not go,
after school play basketball,
i got scolded again, fcuk.
www.xanga.com/samanthalimjiayi; my new blog, up to you if you want to read.

samantha lim here.
at charmaine house here.
bye bye.
good nights.
by: lamer Cheong!(:
weeeeeeeee!(:
i'm at charmaine house now.
Sunday, we went to play basketball!(:
with Peiqi, Yorkying, Monkey, Charmaine & Jia Mei!(:
we had a fun time weeeeee!
Monkey teach us one hand lay up, fun lah!
i scolded the kids there! i'm mean who cares!
i owe cheong Peiqi a meal & a drink!
i lost in man jiang to monkey who was behind all the way!
ahhhhh dumb me! ahas, after that Home-ed!(:

alright posting again secretly, my main com is down!
awww, my papa say i used to much ahas maybe?
nevermind monday they had training! me & jia mei had biology,
so boring, i was fighting with her, during break we played ball!
coach punished them! so mean, sorry uh girls!):
alright after our biology i played ball with yy charmaine peiqi & tiffany, after that KFC,
& home-ed, papa fetch me and da jie go dentist!
my sister was listening to my dad of the enblockment, suck lah i dont want enblockment,
even if can enblock i want condo no HDB! i never stay before since i was young!
doctor eric help us clean our teeth till whiteeee! say cheeze!(:
he never collect money from us, he rejected! ahh so free cleaning!(:
tuesday i went for tuition jia wei got join!
we did comprehension, so bored i got corrections,
jia wei got a dictionary from the teacher cause he dont know how to spell,
ahahs dumb dumb!(:
alright after that i went to my granny house to eat!
we were trying to tempt my younger cousin! he ate for an hour! so longggg!
he love water melon so we pass some to his face! ahsh he ate faster when i took out the cane!
alright after that hoome-ed!
today, meet tan jia mei! she was late!
alright we were the first two followed by alison then charmaine & monkey!
the rest was late! hweechang came then coach then janice and lastly peiqi!
coach was latee! he owe us our chicky meal!
alright we slack the whole training except for the last part,
we got to run ten rounds in 4.30 minutes! i ran 4.35 cause i stop at the pole!
ass him lah! if not i pass, actually i did!(:
ah who cares after training, we all walk to junction eight, we packed KFC up to food junction!
eat & talked, after that me and jia mei went home!
she pulled me to wait for bus! after waiting i cabbed home!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARREN YEO ZHI QIN!(: (thank me!)

Day one

i stayed up till 3 then i went off to sleep cause i pei yy finish her homework,
i'm so nice!(: i slept for two hours got woke up by my mum at 5,
bathe & off to beach road to sit our coach, reach there so many people,
we went to the lounge to sit that was only for business class only,
cool right?(: so i went in to sit until 7, at 7 we went up to the bus,
we went up the double decker bus! first time there were only 16 seats in this bus,
there were kids! god damn, damn noisy! went to the two checkpoint,
after that they on the Tv! i started seeing what movie i wanted to watch,
there was Auquamarine, Initial D, I do i do, Zodiac Race & many more,
i watcha all the above there, they serve us nasi lemak, so cool!
after eating, they ask me you want tea or coffee? ahas i said i wanted tea!
& in a minute they sent it to me! alright i never sit this bus before so forgive me,
reach Genting about 2, check in to my hotel! so nice!room 14140,
what a unlucky number, my mum slept in the room, me & my sis& my mama friend,
we went out, Uncle Alan went to the casino so me & sis went to arcade to play,
well we played this machine, we dont even know how to,
it was simply spinning the wheel so i tried,
& i got jackpot! ahahs my sis tried so did she got a jackpot! cuteee,
after that we shop around, make our sticker names, walk around& back to the hotel!
Day 2
woke up at 8, sat a cab down to Kuala Lumpur, one whole hour,
Uncle Alan & my mother was chatting with the taxi driver, crazy people,
stayed at hotel Istana, the room was not done yet & we could not check in,
so we went to shop first, went to Mid Valley, we went seperate ways with my mother!
good! i was so happy, can shop quietly with my sis, went to miss whatever,
i bought the pencil case! my sis let me buy! after that i follow my sis to a shop,
her turn to buy she bought a pouch to put her hockey funds,
after that we walked intoo world of cartoons bought stuffs again,
OMG me and my sis got shock at the things we bought,
alright who cares we went up to the last level, we saw a wallet shop,
& we bought a wallet each, my sis wallet is like some old aunty wallet,
i was critising it the whole time, she's a noob lah she cant even find the coin pouch,
i kept laughing at her dumbness, we went into a pet shop & saw puppys!
my sis say she want to buy one, she's mad!
alright my lao bu call cause she shop finish already, come chase us,
siao eh she shop finish we haven leh, forget it meet her at Basement,
ate there went off back to the hotel put our stuffs down,
went off the sungei wang, i saw many shoes, i saw one addidas puzzle shoe,
she refuse to buy for me, ass her! she say so ex,
nevermind i quarrelled with her! went over to Lot 10, she bought two pairs of shoes,
siao eh then she dont want buy for me! nevermind, we went back to the hotel,
met up with my mama friend again, went to Alloy street to eat,
my sis bought her DVDs from there! naughty girl!
the guy was cutee my sis told him there was police, he say jing cha you zhen yang! ahahs(:
alright ate alot & went back to sungei wang!
my mum still refuse to buy for me! dumb her! after that back to the hotel!
Day 3
woke up at 8 went down to the hotel buffet for breakfast,
i compaint to my sis i wanted the shoe! she say you ask mama later,
i ask her she say NO ass her! i want that shoe lah! forget it,
i already da xiao that nian tou already, went back to sungei wang,
spilt with my mother! yes yes! shop with my sis again, she bought a disc,
& i bought my adicolour shoe i could change the strips!
met with my mother, went to Lot 10 again & back to the hotel,
pack up & bought chewing gums & off to the bus terminal,
me & my sis wandered about, up the bus, no more business class,
this bus sucks to the core! cant even sleep properly!
reach back to singapore at about 10 cause the jam at Tuas,
my papa come fetch us home!(:

you hate me i hate you, cant you just stop your nagging for once,your mouth cannot zip one ah, i haven even wake up you go vacum my roon, come wake me up, you need work i no need hor, asshole, ask you wake me up in the morning you go why should i, ass lah you ask me do things i got say why should i meh, always saying i will retain i will retain, you like that the more i no more heart to study already, you always like sis i know, you think i blind one ah, its obvious lah you like cleverer people when you yourself aint clever at all, talk to you give you suggestion you call me shut up, when sis say anything you wiill talk to her, you think i what invisible one ah, ass hole shit, i tell you the BIGGEST REGRET IN LIFE IS TO BE IN THIS FAMILY! i dont know why i was put in here! if i had a choice i rather be in a not poor family but a family full of love, a family i can talk to when i have problems, i'm yearning for that, i hate this family! since you want to ignore me i will ignore you then ask me do things i wont care, you go ask your bao bei nu er go do! i will still be a happy kid ignoring you!(:

as usual i'm all alone at home, my sis went for bbq & my dad off for a wake!
ahhh & the luggage aint pack yet, who cares i'm not looking forward to it,
alright today we joined the boy's for trg,
alright until 12 plus they played matches, went off to LJS,
alright third level-ed, play Big 2!
i went home after that, my dad fetch me out for tuition yeah!(:
i'm super duper high! but theres some bimbo people in my class oh my GOD!
i miss the times with Fabian, Dao Bin, Hai Yang!):
my best "sisters", they brought me joy,
one was even my boyfriend, aww all over but still friends!(;
so cuteee i miss the time we spent with huang lao shi,
& we played after class always! crapping about people we hate!
told them my problems!(: they are oh-so nice buds lah!
i gonna meet them out soon soon soon!(: sisters wait!
alright i'm home playing some super high music!(:
ok i'm off tomorrow, do me a favour people!(:
tag my board when i'm gone ok! heee i will go to the lan shop to see you girls& guys tag!(:
heee bye bye people!(:
sammy is a super duper high kid!(;

alright i am totally moodless, though i'm going on a holiday in one day time,
my mum is nagging at me since 9 damn pissed off,
alright i totally did nothing today except for my aunt coming to my house for lunch,
but she went off after 15 minutes,
slept woke up went for tution, boring, sat bus back,
typing out my chinese composition now, well got to hand in before the 15th,
so i'm kind of typing it out quickly, those who have not done it good luck,
band one choose three out of five, good luck.

moodless, emo, depression kid.)":

alright yesterday was kind of family day out!(:

all cousins unite as one, we went to Park Royal for buffet cause of Father's Day,

ate ate ate, yummy-licious, went into the TV room & we started taking pictures,

girls boys all take, cameras go snap snap snap!(:

went off at about 2.30, we went to Novena Square Two!(:

cuteee, my mummy sponsored us to the arcade cause she wanted us to wait for her,

my cousins & aunt went too, well they had some rock climbing there,

my aunt went to change for the chance to climb, three chances for three people,

my three younger cousins climb!(: cutee,

went to the arcade first cause it wasnt their turn,

we saw Juz-B, they were performing! their songg are nice(:

arcade-ed for about half an hour my aunt paid!(:

so we did not use my mum's money!

after arcade-ing, we went off to the rock climbing,

my younger cousins are so cute but one of my cousin gave up,

he's too scared but Kerrin made it up all the way! (:

squeeze the rubber ducky and you will be put down,

Kerwin was squeezing the rubben ducky like crazy!(:

after going for rock climbing we ate at Ah Mei,

my mum sent my younger cousin home,

me&aunt&cousins went for the EURO FUN PARKKK!(:

its super duper ex, my uncle dared us to sit the Vortex,

the most challenging one!

Felix, me, my sis agreed we got treated for the ride, 4 tokens we had to buy 11 more,

so 11*2.50=?? , this is the amount we had to pay!

sat it, i scream like a lunatic cause it turn 360 degrees when youre up there!

alright come down legs wobbling, home-ed after that!(:

alrights i am blogging cause no one is at home as usual,
how bored can someone get,
when you start jumping on the bed like some crazy person,
rolling on the floor& start singing at home at the top of your voice,
argh yesterday cant meet up with them): ,
even if i go two i must be back so whats the point,
well yesterday night talk to AHSHUE!(:
her birthday was on the SEVENTH!
alright talk & i went to watched Unstuck In Time,
real nice how i wish i could change history but once it changes,
it becomes scary, so even if you can change it dont change,
i rather it stays the way it was, better than a whole where you dont know whats happening,
alright i was effing tired so i slept early,
watched campus superstar with my sis in the morning,
happily giving comments saying who is ugly,
well i am supporting Shawn, real cute guy!(:
oh well thats all, toodles!(:

GENTING TRIPS!
YorkYing; 10th to 13th
Charmaine; 13th to 16th or 15th
Samantha; 15th to 17th
nice? YorkYing will be going off tomorrow have fun!(:

Yesterday morning i've got a fever plus stomach pain,damn.
so pain till i woke up at 6 plus, i did not want to go to for training,
but cant remember anyone number so i just went ahead,
reach there only YorkYing, PeiQi& Alison was there,
no sec twos they all went for camp, sat there and watch them train,
they did run-ing, drill-ed, &played some matches,
when the match started seriously i wanted to laugh at someone,
nevermind i'm not that mean, they stayed back after training for some short matches,
i played awhile, went to locker,went to KFC,
with Monkey,YorkYing,Charmaine,Tifanny,PeiQi,
after eating we went to play pool at Bishan Golf Academy,
monkey did Prawn Fishing,i went home after awhile,
reach home vomitted out all my food, so it is as good as not eating,
don't think i can go today, sorry Charmaine.):

YorkYing' always think your life the positive side,it may not be a very good life but thats what we have, we just have to live on & live well,think of some happy stuffs,&your life might be more meaningful, &any troubles can tell us ya? dont keep it to yourself, smile(: You are the SUN!(:

Sick damn, don't know if i got the energy to go out.):

i know you hate me,
i know you dislike me,
i know you like sis more,
i know you are just biasity,
but i am controlling,
but i am not showing anything,
but i really cant take it anymore,
i really want to run away,
i tried to get over it,
but i cant,
i cant run,
i cant get over it,
i really cant stand it,
i really feel like leaving my house.

i shall do a post before my blog rots.
saturday i went for my cousin's wedding, well dont really know them,
neither did i talk to them before but wish them all the best.
their wedding was held at Laguna National, Kia Heng&Priscilla all the best(:
alright yesterday was training kind of slack but i finallt could go out!
my mum woke me up at 6.15 when i said 6.50 argh nevermind,
went to junction eight to meet YorkYing, bought breakfast off to school,
saw Janice at the school gate, training did loads of running today,
match-ed, drill-ed,picking of C'division numbers,Janice was the same as me
&yesterday was the Fifth!(:
alright we got a talk from coach he wanted to know all our names,
after that we went off for our lunch, YorkYing,Charmaine,Janice,PeiQi&me ate at Mac,
went off to buy magazines,pulled them to sit 410 green with us, Janice dropped,
aftter was me they went to play pool at the Bishan Golf Academy, home-ed.

Just because no one has been fortunateenough to realize what a gold mine you are,
doesn't mean you shine any less.
Just because no one has been smart enoughto figure out that you can't be topped,
doesn'tstop you from being the best.
Just because no one has come along to shareyour life,
doesn't mean that day isn't coming.
Just because no one has made this race worth while,
doesn't give you permission to stop running.
Just because no one has realized how much of a woman you are,
doesn't mean they can affect your femininity.
Just because no one has come to take the loneliness away,
doesn't mean you have to settle for a lower quality.
Just because no one has shown up who can love you on your level,
doesn't mean you have to sink to theirs.
Just because you deserve the very bestthere is,
doesn't mean that life is always fair.
Just because God is still preparing your king,
doesn't mean that you're not already a Queen.
Just because your situation doesn't seemto be progressing right now,
doesn't mean you need to change a thing.
Keep shining,
Keep running,
Keep hoping,
Keep praying,
Keep being exactly what you are already:....COMPLETE!
Got this from Miss Tan blog real meaningful!(:

sighs this few days are like hell?
forget it i want to go out so much, i went for biology today.
i was completely drench when i reach school, went up for lessons with JiaMei,
she keep telling me they were going out but i cant?
she told me theres a outing for basketball on the 12th but i cant go.
its driving me crazy i want to go out!
i feel real depress when i can go out, how i wish i can sneak out of the house.
forget i shall just be a loner for a whole damn 6 months.
i will go home everyday, go nowhere except home& school.
try being in a house you cant watch TV, no computer for you?
would you be happy?
well i wont.
thats all )": & sorry PeiQi&YorkYing.

alrights i am finally able to blog at the school com lab? i am so HAPPY!(:
yaaaaaaay!((:
that darren yeo is gonna piss me off soon!!he love typing nonsense in my account!)):
alright these few days sucks?
my mother is like comparing me with my sis so what her result better BIG meh?
RJC& GYSS only diff is one is three one is four BIG meh?
you born me this way, you hate me so much dump me away i will be happier?
you dislike me why did you could have aborted me then, at least i would forget i have such a painful memory?
sighhs forget i retain you will disown me, disown lor i will be happier,
why not just throw me into the orphange?
forget it, i dont take your as my parents anymore.
yesterday i was real happy with my happy family(:
darren yeo,shih quan,ryan chan, jia wei&zuo yang
eilene vanessa jia mei demi ashley me.
we are a happy family we all had fun in cable car& the boat ride we took videos photo!!(:
yaaaaaay i love you guys!!((:
alright i am sad& happy, funny?

YorkYing; cheer up!((: your big name is on my blog again. must smile dont scare of the meet the parents session!
Charmaine; its up to you, if you give her that eye she give you that eye you think she happy?
she is piss with your attitude why not just clear up the mess so everything will be fine.
a friend is definitely better than a enemy. if you want an enemy then go ahead.

this morning i was awaken by my aunt cause she wanted to go jogging she pulled me along, nevermind i just follow her. fetch my younger cousin to his swimming pool there went back to bishan park jogged with my aunts and younger cousin, 10 went back to RI swimming pool fetch my two cousins went to see my aunt new house, went home&out again. ate at WISMA my dad fetch me to my tuition centre,after tuition i went to buy met my mum at somerset, she went to buy stuffs just follow went back to bishan bought stuffs went to my granny house ate&home.

YorkYing;nothing is impossible in this world, put in effort and you will see the results,believe in yourself, a miracle may happen.

ok i am like posting for the theird time today,who cares i love blogging (:
alright YorkYing ask me out, so i said ok since i was such in a good mood today plus PeiQi birthday so we four went out me,YorkYing PeiQi XueFen we four went out, went to meet YorkYing first she was complaining it was hot, i started saying her in the sms its so cooling here lalalas, ok the bus finally reach her bus stop she boarded and off we went to tpy, PeiQi was so early ok waited for XueFen finally we decided after 20 minutes sitting there we decided to go to marina, sat 56 there reach there we went to arcade alright PeiQi was really funny playing with all the games there, went to suntec talk to YorkYing, i keep winning her in quarelling oh YorkYing dont be sad, we walked back to marina they wanted to see the SEA i went off leaving YorkYing with them,sorry girl i hope your SUN wasnt too bright,well i have a phrase for her behind every cloud there is always LIM YORKYING, lalala sat 162 for an hour before reaching home, my sis went to changi for a birthday party? so i went out with my parents, i was talking nonsense, my mum started her nagging all those shit sat down&eat, went to junction eight to collect my photo&i started quarelling with my mother
"you better go for your chinese tuition tomorrow"mum
"whatever"me
"your chinese results aint that fantastic"mum
"i know"me
"daddy i dont want tuition this tuition i can sleep for like an hour waste of money"me
"ok,mummy cancel it for her then"daddy
"dont everything listen to her"mum
"please lah i never fail my chinese before for peat sake:me
"dont think you are smart"mum
"i am always"me
&tada i won them i can dont go for chinese tuition already(: went to thomson bought ben&jerrys i told my dad i wanted it.ok i bought it &home!(:

i'll be a happy girl(:
i won all quarell today!(:

from this very day hour minute second, i will forget all my troubles& try my very best to smile in front of everyone(:
second uncle you will always stand a place in my heart i will never forget you.

its may 19th,PEIQI'S BIRTHDAY. happy birthday girl.
yesterday i could not go with you girls as i had to attend to something,i'm sorry.
this morning i filed for a police report for my lost wallet, i told them what i lost, well i dont care whether the money or ez-link is lost, i only care for my memories. all the prints we had took for the past three years are all missing gone forever, thats what i am concern my wallet the person can have it i can go get another one just return me my prints please thats all i am asking for. sighhs sat there for 20 minute waiting for the police to type in the details, they ask if we wanted them to investigate this case my dad said no need, but i wanted them to investigate sighhs nevermind, went to take my ez-link photo and i went home.

once again happy birthday PEIQI.

sighhs i seriously hope you girls had fun.
this morning my mother scolded me just because i lost my wallet she refuse to give me any coins, in the end is my aunty gave me i teared all the way to school sighhs, i wonder do i have any kin in this world maths i got 22.8 sighhs first time such a low score, SS did mind map, CHEMISTRY, we watch just follow the law it was funny, thank you miss chew, Recess ate went up for POA she teach on cheques today i understand for once sighhs,after school they all went home so did i, my dad came to fetch me early at about 5 plus went there sighhs i cried last day of it, we all just sat there all silent, dad fetch me home about 10 cause he saw i was really sad, home.

i will miss you forever&i will regret forever too. a handphone can be repaired but a crack&stab heart can never be repair.sighhs

i hope you girls did have fun i'm sorry i cant attend.

sighhs this morning HAC, physics i fail by just 4 marks i beg for marks none given forget it, went to the hall for english i failed by just by 0.5 utterly disapointed sighhs i controlled my tears, Recess i cried, went up for chemistry i failed by 3.5 marks haiis, 11.45 we were released for the MOMO show sat the bus with YorkYing, reach national library the hall we did our flower first, went in for the show, it is about how people treasure their time, the show lasted till 4 the bus was late reached school went to meet them at thomsom plaza i lost my wallet it must be between the 15minutes interval it got stolen i told my dad, he filed a police report for me.

GOD; you took away three loved ones from me& now you took away my memories for three years, do you want my life now?

thank you YorkYing&JiaMei.sighhs

sighhs this morning i reach school sat there alone, i received a message from my dad, why must misfortune always fall on me everytime? history i pass but its just border line i could have easily be the lowest in class, i teared during history i doubt anyone see, went for CME i keep tearing, physics library recess sighhs chinese went up i cried&cried i keep asking myself have i done anything wrong in the past? went for biology finally i settle down i teared abit but its not obvious,assembly& i went home.

i dont know whether crying so much will help? sighhs cant i just be free of misfortune?
i wonder when will it stop? haiis leave me there to die&suffer all alone.

sighhs i am such a failure. this morning took back our english paper one kind of ok? cause i could have screwed up, 17/30&16.5/30 for both i forget which is which went off for PE it was raining so no 2.4 cant run, went to play van phone& sit with chaili, went for POA i got 33 for my POA overall sighhs how low, Recess ate went up for chinese Zhiying& me sat with WeiJie got back our papers, message YorkYing lazy talk cheer up YorkYing, went for maths i failed like 28 sighhs i am a failure sucks, waited for YorkYing with PeiQi&Charmaine, Claudia cried cheer up girl work harder for EOY, i fell& bleed great let me bleed to death how i wish i can die due to lost of blood.

YorkYing' cheer up nothing is impossible in thsi world, dont lose the battle fight it on, one day you will win it this battle, tired rest awhile&carry on no more energy we help you fight.

i finally have a private blog no one can view it i can vent my anger on it& sadness sighhs a bad start today i forget to bring YorkYing's newpapers rush back and take reach school at 7.20 biology i failed 13/80 the whole class failed none pass, CME i got scolded go on call my parents that i slept, SS sighhs thomas ask me what happen i ignored sorry ): RECESS they discuss what they did it really hurts me hence i walked off, chinese lesson i teared i really could not stand it anymore it hurts me deep down inside is like two person on earth but at diff side of the earth sighhs, thanks YorkYing& ZhiYing. paper one 42.5/70 paper two 44/70 lousy i aint the highest POA 30/100 sighhs bad score how dumb am i? sighhs after school played ball...played for awhile thanks Janice for your advice well your is the same case as mine i will try to adapt? i hope? ran one round at the field with Janice, YorkYing timed for us. went back to sit down we played the animal game? all went home after that.

i hate you.sighhs.

sighhs today is mother's day but i aint happy at all
i woke up & i got scolded for no apparent reason?
forget it i slam the door&walked out of my house,
i went out alone first time all by myself no one to talk to me,
took a bus to junction eight,
went there by myself looking at it,sighhs,
i took a train back again& reach home,
went up to my house all the way to the top sat there&pondered,
is it me in the wrong?
is it me who caused all these troubles?
sighs, ending my life will end everything immediately but the tornument will still be there.
The start of your happiness,is the start of my tradegy.

steamboat-ed with YorkYing,PeiQi,HweeChang,XueFen,Jeanette,JiaMei,Vanessa.

met them up at toa payoh, went to meet PeiQi&YorkYing first.

the rest came at about 5.30 sat MRT to marina.

i shut up all the way,sighhs why must things turn out this way,

sighhs sat bus 400 to the steam boat place.

they started to ask people for help for the table, finally there was someone

settle down &started cooking,JiaMei was obsessed with her crabs&eggs?

the rest just went crapping making us laugh, real great laugh

started taking loads of photos, we cooked food for each other.
message my aunt to fetch me, 9.15 my aunt came to fetch me, fetch my cousin,
went pass swiss hotel,

SHELL-ed home.

sighhs, how i wish the clock would turn back for me.
躲得了一时，躲不了一世 ...

i wonder if falling from this height will i die,

i am hurt on the inside

&that will be a forever hurt,

why must life be like this,

i've gone through so much of problems

why must there be more??

i am already collapsing on the inside,

putting up a strong front,

&you think i am fine,

sighhs i am have nothing much to say already,

i just hope the clock can turn back,

wont that be a good thing?

everyone will be happy in this world

why is GOD making us collapse,

making us strong?

making us independent?

sighhs, i give up on everything.

YorkYing,PeiQi,Aloysius,ShihQuan,Marcus; thanks for listening to my troubles

i have troubled you guys too much hence now i will stop telling people my troubles.

sighs two different world of people?
this morning all thanks to my mum i was late, she said she will call for a cab but she cant call one and at 7 she told me go it bus? haiis forget it,sms ashley she say she will sit the bus so...me ryan and her walk into school late but we were early? maths teacher went through some stuffs,SS got back failed? sighs i am going to flunk everything sighs, went on to chem fail also but a good fail,recess almost all stalls no food? POA fail too? haiis i am such a failure, i pondered during POA, some things in life we just have to let go...went to mac with them peiqi left we sat there played games? went on to MOS charmaine kept playing with my hair? they followed me to my bus stop waited with me, thanks.

sighs maybe i am really at fault for all these things happening...
you hate me so much;just kill me
you hurt me;&i will hurt myself
sighhs

PeiQi;cheer up, we will help you.

sighs is it good to be the last day of the exams?
reach school i went to parade square,thomas was there talk to him assembly played?went up to exam room last time going to step in...the whole class was here except five students,one hour and exams are officially over...went to meet peiqi went to mac with her and peiqi saw...&she started laughing followed janice to buy her noodles she going to rick house so followed her buy food went off to meet yy went to sit at MOS yy treated us to milk tea thanks. charmaine come we went to change off to marina, sat 56 almost got bus-sick sat for very long, finally reached marina got off and walk to GV bought ticket for the malay ghost show? "dont look behind",went to mac &eat,watched the show me char and peiqi screamed yy was so calm she wasnt even scared, scream throughtout the whole show, after the show we started scaring each other, walked to suntec wanted to play arcade but we were in school U so cant, walked to esplanade and they waited bus with me thanks, i waited for 162 but it did not come so i just take 56 reach novena i changed to 167&next 410 reach home at 7.30.

you hate me;dump me into the bin
you dislike me;dump me into a orphanage
you dont love me;you should have aborted me
you scold;Ah-Lian? sighhs
you hurt me;&i shall hurt myself
you want me out;i shall do it
you want me to die;i will gladly do it.

end of exams good/bad thing?

hello!
Peiqi is here to help samantha to post'ya?
her comp was ... erm, yeah?
if you're smart enough, you can link arh.

All right, her grandfather was in the hospital.
he will be all right one'ya?
Samantha, don't be over-sad.
cheer up.
Everything will be fine.
(:

Okay, samantha gonna do well for her exams, for sure.
(:
so, i wish her all the best!
'You can do it.
(:

Samantha lim jiayi, my boyfriend. (: